A friend of mine posted a great article by Melinda Gates that really struck a chord with me. In ‘WORD OF THE YEAR’, Melinda states that instead of a New Year resolution-she finds it better to choose a New Resolve. “A word that encapsulates my aspirations for the 12 months ahead”.
It didn’t take me more than a few seconds to land on my word of the year- RECOVERY. Since I’m still recovering from Sepsis- this word applies to my health aspirations. Working on muscles, joint movement, cognitive abilities, memory, energy, and the latest- a constant drum beat in my head ( which makes it next to impossible to read or to write). Plus- did I mention- I really miss driving. This has all lead to my becoming very reclusive- normally I’m the most gregarious person in the group. Not so now – I’ve lost quite a bit of me. RECOVERY is my 2019 word – my goal!
I would love to recover my home. What do I mean? I can’t remember where, why, what, how- like how do I make my coffee each morning without forgetting to add water- where did I put my favorite pj’s- what is this doing here- why are these clothes in the laundry? Where does this sweater go? What socks go with these pants? Why is this sitting on my dresser? Did I forget to pay that bill? Why is this room such a mess? My home is totally discombobulated! I need some order.
Can we talk about how lonely I am for family and friends? Some are far away- some are very busy, some are – I dunno. I can’t drive or fly to visit- which leaves me very isolated and lonely. This is an area of my life that needs massive recovery. I need people. I need hugs and laughter. It’s a very heavy burden for my hubs.
Personal wants and needs definitely need recovery. I want to be able to exercise- which is PLAY for me. I usually read a minimum of 50- 75 books a year – but this constant drumming in my ears ( or is it in my head) keeps me from having concentration. It keeps me from writing (this blog and my journals). I no longer can tell if I make any sense- can you?
This is my RECOVERY goal:
Melissa Gates has chosen GRACE for her word this year. “ Keeping my heart open is important. A broken heart gives me ungency. A moment of grace gives me hope”
The power of a well chosen word – it will keep us focused and give us something daily to work on. Different kind of New Year goal.
I’m focused on RECOVERY- WHAT IS YOUR WORD?
PLEASE SHARE YOUR WORD?
Later
C
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Carol, my little buddy, you wrote so well. I truely wished we lived closer. You are my bright sunshine. Your color of orange inspired me every day. Everytime, I see that color, it reminds me of you. Every slug bug too! I look to you for inspiration. That is my word. Inspiration, thank you.
Thanks little buddy. Writing is really hard for me right now with the constant drumbeat in my head. It’s like writing or reading in time to a metronome